so, i've decided to give him another chance. people might think i'm stupid or weird. but what the heck, i love him, and i'm willing to take the risk.

i just hope & pray to god he wont take me for granted, and wont dissapoint me anymore.. amiiiinn..

Waking up to find another day

The moon got lost again last night

But now the sun has finally had its say, I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in, it’s all over me

I’m lying here in the dark, it hurts a lot

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything

Nothing less cause, you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am, I’m handing over everything that I’ve got

Cause I wanna have a really true love

Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up

Stay up till four in the morning

And the tears are pouring

And I want to make it worth the fight

What have we been doing for all this time?

Baby if we’re gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I’m safe

Don’t want to lose the love I’ve found

Remember when you said that you would change

Don’t let me down

It’s not fair how you are

I can’t be complete

Can you give me more?

Oh please, you know what I need

We can’t escape the love

Give me everything that you have

hurt hurt hurt..it just wont go away..

dear god, please take my heart so it wont hurt me anymore...

HEARTBRAKE 2008

i never knew that heartbrake could feel this bad. all the hurt in the world cant describe the feeling i felt last wednesday. hurt,betrayed,stupid.. it felt like my heart was being stabbed over and over and over.. even now thinking of it brings tears in my eyes.. i just wanna dissappear.

how could you love but also hate a person so much u just wanna die?

he, the person i dearly loved, whom i gave my heart and soul, my mind, my body, every inch of me, betrayed me in such a way, i cant even explain. he took my trust, and ripped it all away..

after what happened, i feel like he became a totally different person. i feel like i dont know him anymore. or is it i never really known him?

maybe its karma. i broke someone's heart so bad before, and it finally came back to me. what goes around, comes around. but i really didnt expect it to come this soon.

how do you mend a broken heart? gosh, never really thought that i would ask that question. it seemed so cheesy. but now, i really do wanna know.

i feel so lonely, so empty, so stressed..